Cynthia Niswonger

Aimed Toward the Light I am rapidly brushing up on a year since several people in my life have passed. I’ve…

Sweetly Adrift "I can't make that flight back. I can't for a lot of reasons. And I told you before I left, I…

Mississippi Reformation There is a place where all of my thoughts escape—confined to an unplanned and unexpected…

To Carry You Home Time is a confusing thing she thought. It seemed that the further forward it ran from her the…

Pinatubo Moon I sat out on the window ledge of my second-story bedroom in my parent's home for what became the…

Hope is a Thing with Splinters Recently I've been trying valiantly to ignore a niggling feeling. I've been…

It's Like Fucking Cancer So people have wondered, why haven't I written about this? Well, I just haven't. And,…

To What I Become: I'm coming up on eleven years of a milestone in my life. It felt like a good time to write…

What Brought Me Here There are a few funny things about the God in my life today. The first and most ironic,…

How I Know It Is Time To Go Back To Work So, breezily, I decide to finish up my 110th Nutcracker soldier costume…

Soul of Dog When God made love in perfect form He saw that it was good He sent it down from up above and…

The Letter To Myself It has been some years now since my life was so profoundly changed. I often wonder if I…

Kind People Never Know Raising a child with special needs is a layered journey, that’s for sure! Some of what…

The Window There is a crazy amount of stress to be found in my everyday world. There are therapies, schools, and…

A Simple Rain The earth is hushed  Those with places to go hurry inside  As outside the sky  Opens up …

Veteran's Daughter My father left Oregon State University in nineteen sixty-three.  He traded in his books to…

The Way Sorrow Moves My sorrow has not moved in any direction that I can follow. I’ve read about all the …

Flowers Pressed in a Book Flowers pressed in a book once so vibrant stemmed of green petals palest of…

The Duke Out beyond the window under an angry silver and gray torrent of God’s tears, a storm begins to gather…

Kaleidoscopes, Butterflies, and Papers in the Wind There are moments that catch my breath and make my heart…

Hearts in my Path I turned forty-one today. It was a quiet start to my day this year. It was, in fact,…

Prettiest of Lies She took things ordinary and mundane and spun them into magic into a land of whimsy…

New Disabled Access Service Passports in Disneyland In early October 2013, amidst much clamor and noise Disney…

Finding the Elephants I wanted to write today because it became apparent in the tiny words "Can I call you, I want…

The Embers I had to wait until today, after October shut down, to even begin to write this. My heart is so weary…

Stepping Stones in Writing One of my goals in writing has been to describe the process. Not only the feelings…

Insanity at Max Interval So I decided to sit down and write out about my struggle for fitness and weight…

The Full Circle Tree Last year at about this very time Nicholas began his first day of special needs…

To Begin Again December 28, 2010: Today I want to tell you how Nicholas began, and how he then came to begin…

Carly Simon Means RUN! There are times, like today when the dust settles around my spirit and I feel,…

Totally Biased and Completely Unscientific I've been thinking of a friend and how much she has made it through…

The Wolf So in the heart of every mother lives the barely contained beat of a primal animal's heartbeat. It…

I Am the Spirit I Am... I am the spirit of the vibrantly hued flower Whose color flashes warning of a siren…

The Funhouse Glass Many times I have found myself standing in the vast empty lands of the scapes of long empty…

Elopement and Autism As May shuts its door, I feel compelled to try my hand at hashing out my attempt to honor the…

Autism Diaries 2 It's taken 3 years in Autism land to feel stronger about some of the things that are said in…

The Clarity of Catawampus I believe in the pure sweet clear musings of a poetess & the quill & ink &…

Dizzy Wings Birds herald the coming of Spring as one big group headlong they go upward spinning in…

The Road I Am On As another phase of my life drifts to close I am aware of a few things. I am acute, to my bones…

Winter Falls Winter blew in early that year The trees gave up their autumn finery And settled into stark black…

Take Me There She Said "Take me there," she said, the little sister into the eyes of the older And so she…

Christmas 2010 So Christmas has rolled around again. And we've come so far from where we were last year!…

Moving The Puzzle Pieces There is a lonely quality to the dark that falls in a hospital room at night.…

The Land Of Disability December 2, 2010 - I've had another thought on what makes Autism so special in my life.…

Reflections On Thanksgiving Thanksgiving 2010 - I was reflecting on this last year and feeling all the changes…

Woman On The Hill Upon the hill she stands seeing from a muffled distance the world below her lazily unfold…

Autism Diaries And so the circle has come fully back to where it is from. It has been one year that I knew my path…

Autism Walk October 3, 2010 It's been a while since I could write. It has to be admitted that though I am still…

I Wish I Tumbled I wish I tumbled like rolling waves of tall green grasses in a meadow somewhere…

Weeping Willow And The Whiskey Moon In the cool cast by her shade there under the tendrils of her wispy limbs…

Fire in The Dream She is fire trapped behind glass deep in the coolness of a watery blue bits of her…

A.B.A. Therapies My son Neeko began his in-home A.B.A. therapy. I guess I should break down what that is.…

McKenzie River I’ve been away so it has been hard for me to write in any flowing congruous way. In fact, it’s just…

Autism Diaries 5 December 21, 2009 I met Sam today, the son of the woman who told me Nicholas had Autism and…

From The Ashes I am from a Navy father soaked in love for the red, white, and blue born of celebration the…

A Cat Called Rupert Even after all of these years, I believe it was Rupert who swaggered in and saved me. A cat as…

Signs and Symptoms of Autism If you suspect your child is Autistic for any, or no reason that you can really…

Autism Diaries 4 October 26, 2009 I called the Regional Center today. It is an organization that provides help…

Autism for Dummies 3 On Mother's Day, I feel a need to reflect. There are things I've learned as a direct result…

Autism for Dummies 2 Again we must remember the spectral aspect of Autism. If we view it like a rainbow in our…

Autism for Dummies 1 What is Autism? I wanted to wait a while and educate myself as to what it is said to be and…

Autism Diaries 1 October 23, 2009 Today I met with the mother of a 16-year-old boy who is Autistic. She echoed,…