While He Sleeps
I wake up early; my husband is still asleep. I find great satisfaction and enjoyment watching his profile. I am memorizing every contour, every curve, and every characteristic of his face. I resist the urge to touch him for fear that I will wake him.
Honestly, I am aching to wake him. I have an overwhelming sense of loneliness while he sleeps. But for a moment longer, I wish to watch him without his knowledge.
My skin looks pasty next to his dark complexion. He is a perfect mocha tone. Amazingly, he likes my shade of faint rose. Even in my own country, I am considered pale.
Although his eyes are closed, I know by heart what color they are—burnt copper with specks of olive green. They change with his mood.—gold when he is extremely happy and espresso with irritation.
I risk touching his hair. He stirs but stays asleep. It’s safe to continue my perusal. Our hair color is similar, but he has speckles and splashes of gray. I have a few also, but no one needs to know. Somehow these flecks of color against his natural coal distinguish him.
A tear comes to my eye. I pull back. I am walking a tightrope without a safety net. I am vulnerable. I am happy. I am perfectly calm. My chest becomes heavy with love for this man. I once heard someone very wise say there are ten different kinds of love. I can’t remember what those are; I wish I did, but this love he and I share has mended my heart has healed my wounds and filled a void I have felt since I can remember.