Lord, My Heart is Crying

Lord, My Heart is Crying

Lord, my heart is crying like the tears
that come down my eyes. My body
aches with sinful lust and my soul is
pounding with guilt. Lord, I need your
help. My husband is denying me, and
he is disobeying your word. You said
we should not deny each other and
as a result of this, I feel myself falling
and burning in passion.

Lord, my heart feels as lonely as a cloud gliding
away after a rainstorm. And it only seems
like yesterday that I was consoling the hearts
of lonely women facing the same struggle. It
only seems like yesterday that I felt so beautiful, young,
and just a woman. It’s not going to be much
longer before I go out and do it.

Lord, I am only moments away from breaking
my vows, and the guilt is tearing me down.
I can’t even talk myself out of committing adultery.
Lord, I don’t want to tempt you, but it’s almost worth
the punishment that you are going to give me.
Oh, how I wish you would intervene and stop
this from happening.

Lord, you do work in mysterious ways. The guilt
I am feeling right now for lying with another man
is ripping me apart. I enjoyed my sin, and I am ready
to repent. I enjoyed my sin, and I am not going to
repent because I am just going to go out and do it again.
I need to let the demons out of me before I can be
Free. My soul is in so much jeopardy. Will you help me?

Lord, my husband came to me with humbleness
and sorrow in his heart for not desiring me; all I
had to do was pray, fast, and wait. He has forgiven
me for sleeping with another man, and he is starting back
making love to me over and over again. My conscience
is bothering me, and I hope that’s the only punishment
that you will give me. My adultery was not even
worth it, but I will own up to it.